My Wife Journal #38

11/03/2026 @ 8:33 p.m.

It's Already Done




    Just when I thought my faith has been tried enough, God comes right on in with another test. This walk with Christ can be peaceful, but I do believe now that I have been consistently walking this walk for I would say about 5 years now, is at a moment of now understanding to really crucify the flesh on a daily basis. And this can come in many different forms. There is a lot I speak on in my journal entries but there is also a lot more that I have not shared: OBVIOUSLY!!! Some of the things I could share, would and may connect a lot of small detail dots. But it won't make up for what has been done. The one thing that I truly pray is that we all learn to forgive and repent and accept Christ as Lord and Saviour before we take our last breath. This would be one of the greatest prayers I could ever pray for anyone that is hurting, don't believe, have hate in their heart, and don't know how to heal. 


My Wife Journal #39

11/10/2026 @ 9:44p.m.

Song: It Has Been Established Artist: Jacklyn Carr


    I stopped the last journal entry because I was not really feeling it that night. Matter fact, I have not been in the mood to write lately, if I'm honest. It's not because I don't want to, just sometimes certain things that go on in my life can put me in place of not wanting to embrace this time to just share certain things, as I have honestly been dealing with some things that have been going on for some time now, that I have touched on briefly throughout my entries. One thing I want for my readers or my future spouse to know or understand, is that even in Christ things are not always the greatest at times. I know that I am coming to the end of what I've been dealing with for a long time, however, I also know that there will be moments even when not in the wilderness where a disciple will be tested. My Father, knows what goes on from the beginning and the end, and what I will say is that I am an overcomer no matter what. I have looked death in the eye's multiple times, so this thing that I am breaking through is barely reaching the surface. That is why I chose this song again. Because I know that I am qualified for this walk, this ministry, this obstacle because I walk in obedience, and in the ordinances of the Most High, so wherever God leads is where I know I will overcome. And if I can be even more transparent, when it comes to being in Christ, you will find that chaos can be going on all around you, but in the secret place you still find the peace you need, the solitude that comes with it and the grace that is found only in Christ. 



Signed,

Your Future Wife