My Wife Journal #30

The stage is set 

09/16/2026 @ 6:43p.m.

Artist: Esther Jonathan Song: Fresh Fire


    Sometimes we don't know what is going on around us when the Lord is moving in our lives. By now in my own my life I understand what it means when the Lord is quiet. It can mean only one thing, and that is to stay put. Now I don't know about anyone else but as for me, this is what this means for me. I have learned His voice in a sense that I know when He is moving to do something by the unction I get in my spirit. This is how the Lord normally speaks to me. He will unction something so strong in me to act on that I can't resist it. Other times, when I get a word in my belly, it starts to turn and hurt so bad to where I have no choice but to release the word and after that the calm comes. 

    Now when I am moved to do or say something, it does not always look pleasing to the eye. As a matter of fact, what I have realized is that most times it's to throw the enemy off alignment, and to put us more into position for the next step. The steps are so strategically ordered that, it trips me out how the Lord moves me in such a way that I'm like looking back like, this doesn't make any sense when I see the outcome and how sometimes all though I may do something the door remains closed, and then I get the understanding as to why the door remained closed. And sometimes the Lord will have you do something, and won't make sense in our physical mindset, but it puts you and the adversary right where they need to be at the appointed time. It trips me out, but I am still learning through every situation because I'm thinking in my own mind how I see the outcome happening, and then I get hit with a door closed, and then I have to go to the Lord to ask what is going on. And then that peaceful spirit of His will remind me, that it's already worked out, just do what I tell you to do. Again, just like a dad. Although I grew up without a dad, He has sure helped me to understand what it means to obey and just do what you're told out of love. I would say the best word to describe it is like an addiction to the Lord. Like you just keep wanting more and more of His peace and His affirmations that you just keep pressing in on Him. 

    What I will say, is as of recently, I felt a little distant from the Lord these last few days maybe about a week. And I know where it comes from, but I just had a moment with the Lord, and I believe that as a disciple of Christ we have to go through a deliverance from to time to time, because oppression still tries to lurk around even in a follower of Christ. So, I spent some well in-depth time with the Lord to break the bonds of certain things over my life, that I have been witnessing here recently. Nothing that the Lord can't handle. And I just see how the Fresh Fire has been coming forth to drive out the devours that tend to rise up at moments. And we have to remember that there is a fight daily when it comes to our soul, so we must be vigilant in prayer, and before the throne as much as possible. It's a major fight for our souls, and the enemy is not going down without a fight. 

       You know, I know that this is a time of exposure, judgment, vindication, and recompense and before we get to that breakthrough, we tend to experience one final trial before the official breakthrough. And when I say, my last breakthrough was big, I was just thinking about how this time around will be EPIC!!! The Fire of God is just mighty in the atmosphere. I have finally gotten to a place, where I can appreciate the fight because of the growth that comes with it. Now naturally, no one wants to deal with things, our flesh wants things to come easy, that's why many don't believe in Christ or walk away from the faith because they feel it should come easy, and if God is God, then He should stop the issues, and can't understand that the enemy is going to fight you to keep you in that position, but in that we have to learn to fight against the flesh so that we are walking in the spirit because we have to be strong in spirit when it's time to go home to our eternal paradise. And if we walked in the flesh and wanted things to come easy then we did not take the time out to die to flesh and prepare, so that we know how to walk in the spirit when the time comes for one to walk in the spirit once they leave this earthly body. So, yea I have learned to embrace the trials, and in that I learn what it means to walk in the spirit and fight and crucify the flesh.

    The power of God is so mighty, that people don't realize that the force of God is what has kept me from losing it all. The prayers I have to pray, has to be on a level of knowing how to break things in the spirit, to war and fight against the spiritual wickedness, and networks. And what I can say, is that life is but a vapor so we must walk in it accordingly and make sure we are doing right by others and walking a life of purity and above reproach. And for that matter I can walk in spirit and truth knowing that all things work for the good of those who love and serve Him according to His purpose and plan for our lives. God Bless

Signed, 

Your Wife