My Wife Journal #22

True Love

August/6/2026 @ 9:37 P.M

Song: Looking For Love Artist: Mul-Ty


    Coming into this journal entry I don't have a title for this one just yet. I'm sure by the time I finish this entry I will. In case you haven't noticed, I just started adding a song to my entries to help relate to my feelings at the time of writing. And this song has been a part of my life for years, a song that I have always wanted to be a part of my "wedding". I believe it is an intimate song that shares the love between a man and woman that just knows what true love looks like. And there I have it this journal entry is called: True Love. I could only have this love for you because of who I learned to love first and that is my Lord and Savior. I don't know from day to day what life will be like with you, but I have a sense of what the love will look like. I feel the way that the Lord cleaned me up and expressed his love to me in such a way that makes me yearn for Him daily, is similar to what we will have. I look at marriage the same way that Christ looks at us as His Bride. The unconditional love that Christ has for us, makes me yearn for Him even more, in a way that is indescribable to someone that has never felt this type of love. And when I found Christ and stayed in Him, I had moments where I would just lay in his ambience for hours and hours in my closet just absorbing the intimate moments with Him, because it just felt so good. Away from the pain, that plagued me for years. It's like when you find peace in God you don't ever want to lose that peace because it just feels that good. And when the Lord allowed me to start back writing these entries, I was excited to start because I knew that I would get to experience a part of me that has never been this vulnerable especially in the open that would bring me one step closer to meeting you once I started back writing. 

    I would like to say I am pretty reserved, to myself, love to be alone, and quietness, since I been walking with Christ. I don't really like to be seen as much, because protecting your anointing is something I don't take lightly. When you're not outside as much, you're not as open to experience the attacks. This is not to say I don't like to do things, because that's the furthest thing from the truth, I just understand what it means to be grounded, and not having to be seen or heard to be validated. And at this point in my life, I try to protect my peace as much as possible. But enough about me. I think that the Lord is really changing my heart to want to experience an earthly love that comes from Him now. I say because, for a moment I was scared to even date, after this last relationship I was in, although I have always wanted someone from the Lord to be a part of my life. Like there were moments where men approached me, but the minute a man showed me a red flag, I ran faster than you could say, hold on. LOL!! I'm laughing but I am so serious. But now it's like I feel it so heavy now, and I'm like jumping from the courting process straight to the marriage. Like hold on girl, it's a process. Maybe because I have done the work to understand what it means to truly be a wife through the lens of Christ. But I still know there is a process and I know that whoever you are, will look like a King in my eyes. I sense that in a way of a man of strength like Samuel. A boldness like Moses, a King like David, stability like Boaz, and a heart like Christ. Now that's a MAN BABY!!! I'm also starting to get an unction to start praying for you again on another level. I noticed in one of my journals that I wrote a letter to the Lord in 2024 about you that I forgot about. So, there were moments that I wrote about you, I just went through quite a bit, to where sometimes I don't recall doing certain things until I read about it. I write a lot, so I can remember things. Glad I did write that down because that was a transparent moment during that journal entry. To a certain extent I feel like we have already crossed paths, we just haven't made that connection just yet, but I feel like it's coming. 

    So, if I can be honest right now, I would love to have a moment of taking time out to go to where there is some water on our first outing to learn about each other. You may be doing more talking than me, just because I'm telling you things now, which is fine with me because I prefer to listen anyway rather than talk. I spend so much time doing that, that it's okay for me to allow you to lead with that. But I'm going to end this entry here, I have to remember that this is still the internet and some things need to be saved for more intimate settings. So, until we meet in the physical, may true love find us in the midst of our singleness. 

P.S. I know you are one of a kind. Nothing like you. True love at its finest 

Signed, 

Your Wife